It helps sooo much having already been through this process and knowing what to expect along the way. That, and...I feel happy and content where we are in life right now. While I absolutely do want to grow our family, and I do want another child, I don't care as much when that happens, or how. I'm not sure that makes a lot of sense. All I can really say is that I am much more relaxed this time around than I was last time. I'm sure there will still be moments when it's hard or frustrating or whatever...but overall, I feel a sense of contentment and peace about the whole thing.
Charlie was so cute then we picked him up from daycare. We asked him if he wanted a baby brother or a baby sister and he said, "brosher." I high-fived him for that because, deep down, I have a special little place tucked away in the corner of my heart for the notion of a family of BOYS. Not that I wouldn't completely welcome and adore a baby girl, mind you! Then walking into the restaurant where we stopped for dinner, I explained that Mommy and Daddy had been to the adoption agency today and that we were going to adopt a baby again. I said, "But this time, you get to help!" I asked him again if he wanted to have a brother or a sister and he said, "Ummmm...a sisser!" Cut to our conversation at the dinner table, where Michael asked him the same question one more time and, after carefully considering for a minute, he said, "I want a brosher AND a sisser!" Now that is a boy truly after my own heart - covering all his bases in such an important matter. Oh how I love him so. I know he will make an amazing big brother when the time comes, I can't wait for that!!