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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Joy and Sorrow

Wow, what a week it's been in blogland! This adoption stuff can be one heck of a crazy roller coaster at times. Tonight I'm feeling a little melancholy. I've been absolutely elated for E, with the wonderful news of her recent match, and that great news came on the heels of good news for RB too.

But then, as is always a risk with this journey, RB got the news we all dread: a failed match. And worse yet, this is the second time they have had to go through this turmoil. Somehow that just doesn't seem fair to me. I just feel so heavy and sad for her, and I can't even imagine the magnitude of her pain.

Then there's Kel, who is waiting for news right now, and who waits so patiently in general. She has had a rather tumultuous few weeks with lots of adoption drama going on, and my heart goes out to her. Ashley also wrote a beautiful post about the journey she has been through this past year, going from thinking she was going to lose her son to the realization that he was going to be placed with them after all. What a beautiful story and heartwarming post!

Then there are also recent posts from Sarah and Jessie, both of whom are dealing with the loss of their mothers, amongst many other challenges. Both of these women seem incredibly strong to me, and they remind me that every day is special, and that bitching about the insignificant stuff in life is truly a waste of time and energy.

I guess tonight I'm just feeling unsettled. There has been tremendous joy and sorrow all in this one week, and it's left me feeling really emotional. I'm definitely counting my blessings, and saying a lot of prayers (both of thanks, and for healing) for all of you out there. Honestly when I started blogging, it was for me. Well...for me, and for my family so they could follow our journey. Now it's so much more than that. I still tell our story, and I blog for Charlie now too...but I LOVE the connections that have happened here. I feel as though I know so many of you on a truly personal level, and that is pretty cool considering the distances that lie between us.


9 comments:

Kel said...

And through all of my troubles, you and Jamie and the rest of our bloggy friends give me reasons to smile and realize that this is the right thing and a thing worth doing. Thank you for your constant encouragement and support, You are a special person and I'm so glad we met!

G & H said...

That was so thoughtful and sweet! Adoption is so hard I never knew and reading every ones stories good and bad just make me lift everyone up in prayer and think of my own situation!

Jill said...

It IS kind of strange isn't it...? How we can feel a close connection with those we have never met...sometimes closer than friends we have known for years...
Infertility (known or unknown) and adoption are not for the faint of heart, and there seems to be such a connection among those of us who have "been there,done that", and those about to take the plunge.
I sooo love my adoptive community!
Hugs, Jill

Hoping for a Miracle~~ said...

Great post! It is awesome the connections/friendships we make here and its great to find others who can relate to what we have/are going through and understand our true feelings. The amount of support, love and encouragment we get is amazing on all levels and its something I cherish everyday. I look forward to checking in on everyone each day hoping to see good news for those who wait, or to offer a word of encouragment if someone is have a hard day or just to have a fun day discussing whatever - our friendships here with each other are truely amazing!

I understand your feeling unsettled, I was feeling the same way last night after reading several blogs that I follow....

kimberly said...

i started following those that jamie followed....and i too feel the ups and downs of those waiting and matched.....having gone through that with our daughter and husband......something you said here melba...touched the way i was thinking this morning....."every day is special and that bitching about the insignificant stuff in life is truly a waste of time and energy"......
so much to be thankful for.....may i stay above the rest!
hugs,
kimberly

E said...

Such a sweet post, Melba. I do feel so much for my bloggy friends...the ups and the downs, and the in-between waiting. If it weren't for the connections I've made, I don't know how I would make it. If only hubby knew how much my sanity through blogging saves his. hehe Following my favorite blogs have given me hope and strength, but has also helped me to remain realistic and grounded. These are things I would never fully get from the people in my RL. However, what gives me the most reward is the support and care I can offer through a post. Thanks for the many supportive and caring words you always send throughout this community!

Debbie B said...

When I'm having a bad day my loving husband asks me what happen to who. There was a time when he knew many of my bloggy friends by the code name of their child to be, Pickle, Bee, Pineapple, etc.
Blogging is an amazing tool for adoptive parents but I do get very emotionally involved. Which is likely the reason that I now have to limit my reading of blogs. I miss it but it's for my sanity.

My heart is just so big, and it sounds like yours is too. {{{HUGS}}} my bloggy friend.

Jessie said...

Isn't it amazing how close you can feel to people just by reading their blog! I've never met you but I feel like I know so much about you and watching little Charlie get big is so amazing! He is just to adorable!

stillthinkingagain said...

Oh Melba, my friend, thank you. I confess that I just read this post (I've been hiding from all things blog-related lately), and was surprised and touched to see myself mentioned. When I started blogging, I never in a million years realized that I would come to truly cherish the friendships that I would make... but I do. I've so enjoyed reading about your journey to Charlie & beyond... it's been such a joy.
Thank you!