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Saturday, July 5, 2008

Yay!!

I just got a message from Elly re: the album issue we have. {bless her heart, she's working on a holiday weekend!} She said it will be fine for us to go ahead and enter the pool with just the one album and then we can give her the corrected one when it comes in. I am really happy about this - what a relief to know we won't be as far off track as I originally thought. I know a few weeks seems inconsequential in the grand scheme of things...but when you're waiting to start a family, every second counts.

I think that's part of what's been bugging me so much lately. Sometimes I get the feeling, watching all the other happy families, that my life is just passing me by. Not that I'm not happy, but I am definitely lacking a sense of fulfillment. I know we're still young and we've got plenty of time, yada...yada...yada, but I just long to be like all the other 30-somethings I know, raising my family and watching the next generation grow. Oh how I long for that! And it's not that I expect a baby to complete me...I know that is no task for a little person...but I'm getting to the age where I want to be able to give back something significant. I was blessed with wonderful parents and a great childhood. I want to be able to give the same to my children and support the future generation the way my parents did. I'm just READY to be a mom! I'm ready to experience youth and innocence again through the eyes of my children. I've felt ready for a long, long time now, but the older I get the more I just don't want to wait anymore. Maybe the impending birthday (I turn 33 in August) and the realization that yet another year has come and gone is what's making me feel so tired of the wait. I know it will all make sense someday, I really do know that...I just hope that day isn't too far away!


12 comments:

Nancy said...

So happy to hear the issues with your album have been resolved.

Believe me, I understand the frustrations over what seem like constant road-blocks in this process. But it sounds like you're another step closer, and you need to keep reminding yourself that this is going to happen for you guys. It's going to happen.

Dave Gerhart said...

I hear ya! I turned 32 in December and thought my life would have looked different, but by the Grace of God it's getting there...maybe a little later than I woudl have liked it, but now it's all coming at once!

You're on the right track. What I love about the adoption process is that you know there WILL be a baby...it's just a question of when. I remembered that when we were in the pool and thought to myself, "I can live with that!"

Rebekah said...

I feel the same way you do. I have a birthday in August too (19th!!) and I'll be 27. The closer I get to 30 the more left out I feel! Like you, I so bad want to be a mom, but I'm trying to keep my mind occupied with other things so that the wait doesn't seem forever!

(Oh, and we live in North Macomb County--about an hour and a half from you! My sister lives in Ypsi so I actually get down there somewhat often!)

Becky said...

That is terrific that you are getting in there already!!
I totally hear you on all of that....my goal was always to have a baby/be a mom by the time I was 30. God showed me that it was His plan, and that he had a sense of humor!, because Jman came right after I turned 31!!!! HA!
The waiting is so hard. Keep yourself super busy with lots of things!!!! And really try to enjoy your time before it is not yours anymore!!!

Mama Bear said...

((hugs)) the wait can be hard! I hope your a mommy really soon! I know how it feels to want to be a mom NOW --- it WILL happen!

Bri said...

Good good good! I knew everything would work out with your book, I just knew it! I'm glad things are starting to go a little smoother! I COMPLETELY relate on needing to be fulfilled. It'll happen...and hopefully soon!

katd said...

I hope so much for you that your day isn't too far away, too. I love what you say here about not wanting a child to complete you, but being SO ready to be a mom. That is exactly how I felt.
I can't wait to one day read that you're a mommy:)

alicia said...

here here sister!

I love how you said that a child won't complete you, thats too big of a task for a little one. that is awesome! such an insight, thanks!

Sarah said...

Hi Melba - thanks so much for your thoughtful comments on my blog... I really appreciate you sharing your experience. It's comforting to know that others have been where we are now. Makes us feel a little closer to our "new normal", you know?

I love what you wrote in this post about your family - "I was blessed with wonderful parents and a great childhood. I want to be able to give the same to my children..." Completely agree!

Tracey said...

God hears you...it will come....

L L said...

I hear ya...so many of my friends are on their 2nd or even 3rd child.

Thanks for the link to the adoption book...great price too!

Bri said...

Hi Melba- I just wanted to tell you I am going through Catholic Charities also. It is exciting to know someone else that is taking the same path. I have had great experiences with almost every person I have encountered there (except my actual SW, go figure!) and am very pleased. I hope it continues down that road!