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Monday, April 13, 2009

"Due Date"

Today was our "due date" on the baby registry. Today was the day I originally projected that we would have our little baby...or at least news of him/her. Admittedly, I just picked the date randomly because 13 is our lucky number, and April seemed like a nice, happy month...but still.

I'm not going to waste time repeating stuff I've already said...I'm just quietly observing that today things are not where I want them to be. They are far from that mark I have set, but even so, they are still good. We're hanging in there, and we will survive...we're just both having a hard time with this wait lately, and it's bringing us down.

Michael is normally so even-tempered and laid back. Sometimes I forget that this is affecting him too--that it's hard for him too. But lately he's been down, which makes me sad.

Anyway, I just want to say thank you to all of you who commented on my last post. Reading it now, it seems pretty bleak...but that is how I was feeling. I am better now, but still not up to my typical happiness level. Your support, encouragement and advice means the world to me, so THANK YOU!

This too shall pass...

16 comments:

RB said...

Oh Mel, that's tough. You are right though, this too shall pass. Hugs and I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. Each day that passes is one more closer to baby.

Andi-bo-bandi said...

You are right! This will pass. The child for your family is out there, and God knows that, and even knows where he or she is right now!

Everything will fall into place and you will amazed at how it happens. Our sweet KJ was conceived the month that we had our first meeting at the agency. That is exactly when we began to pray for the mom of our child.

Praying for you!

alicia said...

HUGS! hard day for sure. I pray with all my might that things will change soon!

Rebekah said...

We love you!!! Baby is coming...

Mrs H said...

Oh Melba this too shall pass it true - unfortunately in it's own sweet time. However the more blogs I read, the more babies I see placed, the more I'm firmly convinced everything DOES happen for a reason - and I'm not one of those kinds of people!

It's raining today - April showers bring May flowers...I hope a baby blooms for you sooner rather than later. Hugs!!

BB said...

...and when it does pass, you will look back and be glad you went through everything you did...because each step is one step closer to your dream come true.

There aren't words that can help you to feel better. For me, it was always the best help to know that others are/were in my shoes. I am praying for you and hoping with all my might that your turn is right around the corner.

We love you, Melba! Soon it will be right. Now, I look back on some of the things I was doing/feeling while R's birth mom was getting pregnant, being pregnant, going into labor, etc. It is funny that those milestones for her coincide with milestones for me...acceptance, discoveries and such. You never know what is happening out there...

Debbie B said...

Glad you are a little bit better. The downhill slumps are the worst. But you know that the highs are so much fun to ride, you'll be there again. Hoping you both come out on top very soon.

Evergreen said...

((hugs to you))

Kel said...

Hey sweet Lady!
I hope with all of my heart that we are both Mommies soon! I've changed our due date twice now...I really hate that it doesn't have a TBD on unknown option! they ask if we're adopting, so why not just have that be a default for the setting when you mark yes? Right?

You are just where you need to be with your tone. Tone should match feeling, and yours does. It can change from moment to moment or day to day. I'm sorry I was too self absorbed to be of any comfort to you on Monday. BIG HUGS now!

michelle said...

hugs....I can honestly say I know how you feel....and you are right this too shall pass!!!

xoxo
m

Terri said...

during our wait, i would forget that my husband was suffering too. it's so easy to get wrapped up in your own head and thoughts and sadness. i made a conscious effort to make sure he felt like we were always in it together. the journey is long and hard and full of disappointments, but you WILL be parents and be better and stronger ones because of it.

Jamie said...

melba ~ my heart just goes out to you so much. we were just shy of our 1 year date and these were things that I dreaded having to go through. however "that which does not kill us only makes us stronger". right?? even though i know sometimes it doesn't feel like you can go on for one more second feeling the way you do. just know.....your baby is out there....i promise you that!! just praying so hard for you and your dear hubby. you are always on my heart.
Jamie

hope548 said...

It's hard to see dates like this pass. I hope your baby finds you soon.

Lisa and John said...

I don't have anything profound to say, but I just wanted to let you know that I totally get it and am 100% here for you and with you

E said...

Melba, I'm sure it was very hard to see that day come and go. I'm hoping that your wait ends very soon. ((HUGS))

stillthinkingagain said...

I thought about you much this weekend. Even though the waiting and uncertainty is never EASY, things like due dates just seem to take the ick to the next level.

I so, so wish that I had a crystal ball so that I could see into your future... and my future too. How much easier would that be?!?