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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Two Months in Review...

Our baby boy is two months old today, which is more than a little hard for me to believe! He is growing so much, and he seems to learn something new every single day! Lately he's started babbling a lot, which is music to my ears! We go to the doctor tomorrow, and I'm really looking forward to what they have to say, but dreading Charlie's shots.

The last two months have flown by in a whirlwind, but at the same time, there have been some deliciously slow days too. I feel so fortunate to have been able to drink in the sight of my son, and memorize his features. This time with him has been priceless, and I will cherish these memories for the rest of my days.

Charlie is a sweet little boy who loves to cuddle, and who smiles a lot. He is everything I've ever dreamed of, and I already can't imagine or remember what I did before he came home. It seems impossible, but I fall more and more in love with him every single day.

My new role as "Mommy" has been everything and nothing I expected all at the same time. The job has been both easier, and harder than I ever thought it would be. There are times when I look at Charlie, and the years that lie ahead seem absolutely daunting. I so want to do everything right by him, but I know I won't. Then there are times when I look at his sweet face, and I am reminded that sometimes love really is enough.

I actually enjoy washing his cloth diapers, and keeping his bottles clean and ready to go. I've never been an immaculate house keeper...and I'm still not, but I do force myself to do at least the basics most days now. I guess the responsibility of chores seems to matter a little more now that there's another person living here.

Charlie is beginning to fall into more regular and predictable patterns these days. He has specific cries for specific needs, and I'm getting pretty good at identifying what he's trying to tell me right away. We have little mini "conversations" now, where he says something in his sweet baby babble, and I respond. We go back and forth until he seems to get tired. He started grasping at objects this week, and he loves to lie under his monkey mobile, or his play mat and coo or bat at his toys.

Michael and I cuddled with him, and sang to him in our bed for about an hour tonight. He was fussing some, and seemed unsettled, but when we started singing, he was quiet and listened intently. We sang all the songs we could remember from our collective childhoods, and little Charlie seemed content. We both truly love being parents, and we are growing into our respective roles a little more each day.

I've been trying to explain in words how this all makes me feel, and even though I can't truly quantify my experiences as a new mom, I can say that I am genuinely fulfilled in my life right now. There were moments of happiness and joy before, but never true fulfillment. I feel at one with myself, and at peace on a deep level these days. I guess the bottom line is that I've been a mom for a long, long time now. The difference is that I'm finally practicing my craft...and loving every moment!



17 comments:

Jill said...

WOW Melba! Is sweet boy REALLY 8 weeks old already?? It seems just like yesterday! I get so emotional when I read your posts! You truly are embracing life as a mommy!
Hugs, Jill

Rebekah said...

Yes!! To all the above. I feel the same way in my two short weeks! I absolutely love reading your posts! You just beam with love and pride and your words are full of thankfulness, not complaints.

You are such a great mom!!! I can't wait to meet you in person, when we get home!!! :)

hope548 said...

Amen sister. I couldn't agree more. Could have written this post myself, but it wouldn't have been so eloquent as yours!

alicia said...

i know! i can't believe it has been 2 months!! It is crazy when I look at Ivy I am like what, I just had you, it can't be 2 months later all ready!

I am so glad you are enjoying mommyhood. It is really quite an amazing experience and something I feel so blessed to do!

He is soo cute, good luck with the shots, Ivy has hers on Friday!

RB said...

Wow! I can't believe that Charlie is already 2 months old. Time is flying by :) He is just adorable.

Debbie B said...

Those last two lines... Well said!

I LOVE that first picture of him in that hoodie. So cute. And it's in your header too!

Hoping for a Miracle~~ said...

He is so cute!!! I am with you - N will be 2 months on the 5th and I just don't know where the time goes!!!

Hope he does okay with his shots, N has his next week and I am dreading it too!

So glad he is doing so well and is such a good baby and I love to hear the happiness in your writing. I look forward to reading your updates and seeing his pictures!

Nancy said...

It is so wonderful to see you enjoying motherhood like this. I can't believe he's already 2 months old!

E said...

Another beautiful post! Your blog helps me to get positive again...that it will happen for us. Thanks for that. Charlie is adorable.

holly said...

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this picture of Charlie! The best one yet! I love reading how you love him...it makes me so excited to kind've be experiencing it through you (for now:). I'm so happy for you Melba!

Jill said...

Thanks Melba for your comment! I know you of all people can imagine how we are feeling right now........
Any tips for the new mommy of a newborn?? (Lucy was 16 months when we got her.)
Hugs, Jill

stillthinkingagain said...

I'm so, so happy for you, Melba! Your contentment and fulfillment is in every word... I love how appreciative you are of every single thing with Charlie. What a wonderful mommy you are!

Anonymous said...

Look at that sweet little chocolate drop. I just want to eat him up. So sweet.

Jamie said...

i love your last paragraph.....there is no way to put into words what our hearts feel. :) and that's simply ok. :)he's just a little doll and I'm so happy you are SO happy. :)

Anne said...

I love the pics. I keep watching for updates and for new pictures. He is just SO cute.

Wendy said...

I love all of the pictures, too!

I'm glad to hear that you are doing so well. :)

Malloryn said...

This is such a sweet post. I'm glad to hear that all of you are thriving! Happy two months :)