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Friday, May 8, 2009

Mamma Bear

So today is one week since I first laid eyes on my precious little boy. He is perfect. He is everything I've ever imagined and then some. He is my dream come true.

This has been a very busy week with lots of visitors for Charlie, and outings almost every day as well. On Wednesday, I think the outings were a bit too much, and I felt my inner Mamma Bear coming out. Micheal had to go to work for the first time since Charlie's homecoming, so I took him over to have lunch with Daddy. I was honored and overjoyed, but also a tad surprised by the overwhelming response from everyone. Apparently, my son already has a reputation around town, and news of his presence in the office spread very quickly.

Overall I really enjoyed letting him meet people that have worked with his daddy all these years, it was just that I felt a little...what's the word...overprotective of him. Everyone was very respectful of our space, and of Charlie, so that wasn't an issue...I think it was just the magnitude of the whole experience that left me feeling teary. I left there feeling awed that all these people were actually fawning over OUR son. I have wanted that for so long, and now it's happening. My sister's are planning a baby shower for me, it will be on June 13. I have waited for MY baby shower for so many years now...

There have also been other experiences with Charlie - with strangers, or people I don't know as well where I have felt very defensive. I'm talking, I would lay down and die for you kind of protective. Comments have been made that make my claws come out. One woman in WalMart asked, "Can I have him?" and I was very firm in my response to THAT question. I knew I would feel this way to an extent, but I didn't expect quite this magnitude of emotions to be so immediate.

I have so many posts in my mind. So many things I want and need to tell you all about. For a few days I was running on adrenaline and doing it all, but these last few have caused me to slow down quite a bit. I'm finally learning to sleep when he sleeps, although that's still not easy for me.

More to come...


14 comments:

Shane & Marie said...

I had been out of town and just now getting caught up on blogs and OMG!!! I can't believe how fast this happened. Wow! You are a mommy. Congrats!!!! I couldn't be happier for you. He is an absolute doll. It's amazing how you forget all the pain of the wait and adoption once you are holding your little one in your arms!

Tracey said...

All your emotions are normal. It sounds just like how I was feeling. Enjoy it all.I'm glad you can sleep when he does....I never got the hang of that one. God Bless!

hope548 said...

Welcome to mommyhood!

kimberly said...

such a peaceful little bundle of joy.......and i ditto hope548!
hugs,
kimberly

LL said...

yep, like hope548 wrote-welcome to mommyhood!

I still get choked up 2 months later when friends of ours tell us how happy they are for us about Shelby.

very normal emotions.

Rebekah said...

I love that picture; he is so beautiful!!! I completely understand your protectiveness! I can't believe you've been out and about so much in your first week as mom. I thought we were going to be sleeping for 2 weeks straight! :)

Jessica said...

Look at the snuggly boy! He's so beautiful.

Will you have to work after he is 6or 8 weeks? The reason I ask is because I found my overprotectiveness really kicked in after I went back to work. That and selfishness - I don't want anyone else holding him or playing with him in the evenings or on the weekends because that's MY time! Makes it hard for romance, and it makes it hard to be nice to even my in-laws and friends because I'm so fiercely wanting mommy time.

But, hey, that's the way it rolls sometimes! Drink it in...your new normal will become the norm. You'll live, east, breathe being protective and love every minute of it!

Kel said...

She asked if she could HAVE HIM? Sorry, no.

He's so cute! And I'm so excited for you! Smooch his lil cheeks for me!!
Kel

BB said...

One of the first times the whole situation sunk in for me was when I took R to my office. That made it VERY real!

I am very excited about getting to experience all of the things I knew i was missing, but the things I didn't even know I was missing are every bit as amazing!!

Wendy said...

Oh, I love the picture - so beautiful!

Happy 1st Mother's Day, Melba! Enjoy every minute.

Karen said...

If you're actually trying to sleep when he does you're a much better mama than me!!! :)

That picture deserves a framed 8x10...simply gorgeous.

Malloryn said...

Oh, that is a beautiful picture! Mommyhood really suits you well, Melba. I'm sorry to hear you've had some incredibly rude comments thrown your way, but I'm thrilled that most people have been excited and supportive. The baby shower will be very exciting too! :)

alicia said...

awesome pic! i am soo glad he is being so celebrated everywhere!!! he should be, he is soo precious, soo happy for you!

and happy mothers day too you! YAY

pERiWinKle said...

don't you think some of the 'overprotectiveness' is a feeling of 'wanting to have him for yourself' for a few years!!! teehee!!! you've waited soooo long...and you just wanted to spend some time with him before sharing...not that you mind....but please! just give some space for the mama! teehee!!!

i know i know Melba! Leave my boy! teehee xx