Emotional Again

As I'm looking at our sweet little boy today and realizing just how fast he's growing, I can't help getting a little emotional. He's going to be a whopping three months old in only three more days, which is unbelievable to me! Summer is coming to an end all too quickly. I have truly cherished this time with him, and I'm not at all ready for it to be over. This has been the summer of my dreams, and I feel so blessed we have little Charlie with whom we can share our lives.

Sometimes I forget. Never that he's our son, but more that he's really here to stay. I keep having these tiny moments where I realize over again that we have a son. Watching two mothers in the parking lot last week, holding their little boys as they pointed up to airplanes in the sky, it hit me again. Tears came to my eyes as I realized I have a little boy that I will do that with someday too. And then I think about the holidays...what will Christmas be like this year, with our little one sharing in the joys of the season? And then his first birthday, first hair cut, Easter...there are so many firsts and milestones! All these amazing moments that will now come our way because we have a son...moments I've been waiting for my entire life! Truly, it humbles me, and I am so thankful for Charlie's enchanting presence, his comforting warmth against me as he sleeps.

For a while after we brought our baby boy home, I cried every single day, sometimes multiple times a day. I would look at him or kiss the top of his head, and I just could not believe that he was real...that he was our son. Those moments have faded as he's grown, but the feelings haven't. In fact, my feelings for him continue to grown stronger every day, which seems as though it should be impossible, given how very much I love him.

I don't know where all this is coming from...my thoughts are sort of a jumbled mess today, but I'm overflowing with awe and amazement as I look at Charlie. I wish I could freeze time and just sit and hold him forever...but then of course, I want to see him grow up to be a strong, healthy, and happy man too. I guess it's the inevitable yin-yang of motherhood, who knows?

And with that...I leave you with a couple more pictures of the sweet little man. These were taken last week, by one of my best friends, Molly. She and I were playing in the studio that I set up to do portraits of her daughters. She captured some great shots of Mr. Baby and me!